Dear Saving Grace

"There’s an emptiness inside her & she’d do anything to fill it in,
And though it’s red blood bleeding from her now,
It’s more like cold blue ice in her heart.
She feels like kicking out all the windows & setting fire to this life.
She could change everything about her using colors bold & bright.
But all the colors mix together - to grey.
And it breaks her heart.
It breaks her heart... to grey."
-Dave Matthews Band

You called me your "Siamese Twin" tonight, constantly attached to your hip. You joke around that I must not have any friends, since I'm always with you. You are constantly rolling your eyes at the dorky things I say, so much so that I'm convinced they're going to get stuck in the back of your head. You tell me I'm not funny, but you laugh. You were an asshole to me before I even met you, but now I know you must have one of the biggest hearts I've ever encountered.

You're one of the few people who brings me any sense of comfort anymore. I've probably reached one of the hardest parts of my life emotionally and it's a struggle I'm not dealing with well, as you can probably tell. And I know you're struggling too. But no matter what is happening right now, I can only be thankful that you showed up in my life when we both needed each other the most. And that no matter what happens or where life takes us, I will always be able to look back and know you were given to me as a saving grace.

I wish you could see yourself the way I see you.